Bingung!!!

Huaaaa....
Gw bingung lagi...
It's a good thing actually, dapet masukan baru dari point of view yang agak beda.
My mother has a friend who happens to be a radiologist. As we were talking about my current activity as a research assistant, she was rather surprised. For someone who has great interest in research (meaning me!) she thinks it would be such a waste if i become a radiologist, even a radiotherapist. I sensed that 'income' is one of her utmost priotity, and not mine. But I can't help thinking that even reseachers need money, for daily expenses, and research fundings (since most researches in this country still needs a lot of 'contribution' the researchers themselves)...
Intinya, kebingungan gw yang pertama:
apakah terdapat kesempatan dan kemungkinan penelitian yang cukup luas di radiodiagnostik?
Kedua:
Dalam doa, gw selalu meminta yang terbaik menurutNYA dan bukan yang gw inginkan (karena belum tentu yg terbaik buat gw itu memang terbaik menurutNYA). Sekarang gw mulai bertanya-tanya, apakah keingingan gw untuk menjadi seorang peneliti di dunia medis memang yang terbaik?????

Kodokhijauyangsedangbingungdanmerindukanramadhanpadahaldiabelumpergi..